我学习生活中遇到的苦难

the tribulations I meet in my life and study
now that I was a senior student  in college I know what I should do whenever i meet tribulations in everyday life .but i still clearly remember the time when i was a freshman . it is hard for me to overcome those difficulties.
though i insist in my mind that i was not a shy boy ,sometimes  actually i was .i was afraid to speak to my classmates on the platform because i worried about making mistakes . therefore usually i did not put up my hands to ask any questions presented by the teacher during the class even if i definitely know the answer .there are many activities held by the student union in  the first year ,but i seldom take part in them .what i can do was to be an audience and admire  the  winner in  the end .  what is more i have no courage to express my love to my beloved. clearl i also know she likes me but because of my flabbiness she was another boy" girl friend at last . what a pity !
as time went by gradually i become more mature in the late years . i have tried many ways to find back the self-confidence . fortunately i have  succeed . i think anybody like the former me should no longer be ashamed and self-abasement . we should cherish  every minute and  second we own now .